Bad Day

Today hasn't exactly been the best day for me. I woke up sore and cranky then became depressed and easily able to cry after my nap. Of course, it doesn't help that I accidently almost dropped my daughter today, and hubs made a negative comment about it.

I felt bad enough to go to the bedroom and bawl. To be honest that's all I feel like doing now. The only reason I'm not is because hubs is behind me and would hear everything.

There are other issues between hubs and I that I don't know how I feel about writing. I guess if this is to be an honest blog than I should, but I don't want hubs to get upset about my writing about it. I guess I can write about it without really explaining everything.

There are things lacking in our marriage that I need. I've explained it to hubs and he understands, but doesn't seem to want to make an effort to change the problem. What's worse is that same situation happened in my last relationship and was one of the 'last straws' so to speak. I got tired of needing stuff and not having the other person give a shit. So I'm kinda scared that this relationship is going downhill and I won't be able to stop it.

I just don't know what to do about that.